Yesterday a neighbor came to my house and told me she saw a coyote run by her house with my cat in its mouth.
In all the years I've lived here, I had never heard or seen any coyotes in my area before, just a bunch of cats. So I thought it was safe even though two neighbors said there were coyotes around. I should never have let my cat stay outside. I didn't think she'd get eaten. I didn't know what else to do when the new baby was born and the baby monitors did so much static I had to leave the baby's door open to hear him. I had heard that cats can sleep on babies and suffocate them, so the day I came home from the hospital I put the cat outside. I should have thought of another solution. My husband had suggested keeping the cat closed in a bathroom, but I said that was cruel... but oh God how cruel is it the way the cat died being eaten. I should have put her in the bathroom... why did I keep her outside? I feel so guilty, I feel sick, like I'm going to throw up
My poor poor cat...

picture of my cat:
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Here's the journal entry of when I first got her: [link]